Hi. This is 2018 Sesia speaking.
A lot had happened in the last few months. I have a bit of mixed feeling about 2017. One of the high moments would be me participating with one of my best friend, ferlita, in a paper competition. Just a heads up, we didn't win. But that's completely fine, because it was a good stepping stone for me to get outside of my comfort zone. I'm very grateful that we even managed to get into the oral presentation step. I guess it's not bad for a newbie right :)
On the other hand, if we're talking about some low moments, it would be the passing of my two grandmothers or as I would call them, oma. Doesn't matter how many times I've tried to put it into words, it's hard to describe the emotions that I felt when I knew that they were gone. As hard as it was, somehow I feel like we've become closer as a family.
Well let's try to be more cheerful shall we. There's no exact reason why I'm making this post. It's not a recap of 2017, because I have a terrible memory span so I don't even bother to try and make one.
About 15 minutes ago I was reading some of my previous posts in this blog. And I can't help but cringe. Like really cringe. Heck, most of my post are cheesy (or a lil bit depressing...). I have a theory regarding my style of writing. I think it has a lot to do with how I write in diaries since I was a little girl. I'm quiet a sensitive kid growing up and I had my own way of pouring my feelings into words that one might say, cheesy. And as a kid, I was one of those who likes to write in letters when I'm mad and eventually give the letter to the person I'm mad at. I was also one of those kids who likes to write an emotional heartfelt letter to my parents or sisters whenever it's their birthday. So I guess that has stuck with me ever since. And so the conclusion of that would be, I like to be a bit dramatic with my words. I just am. It's a habit I can't get rid of apparently. Another supporting theory would be, I see this blog as my 'public diary'. Weirdly enough, I find blogging therapeutic. I feel that I can just go on and on babbling about myself without feeling guilty at all. And not knowing who exactly my readers are, or like buttons and any that kind of stuff, makes the whole experience more honest and authentic. I don't have any needs or thoughts of pretending to be someone else in this blog. Unlike instagram which in my opinion everybody including myself, are just trying to look good and perfect (which obviously none of us can ever achieve). It's not like instagram is bad or anything but I feel like it's not the right media to show your honest self.
Okay,let's toast for more cheesy posts to come. And let me tell you, I can already feel the cringe in this one.
