There are so many things I want to say, so many things going through my mind that I don't even know where to begin. Slowly they're turning into this huge untangled mess and I find myself struggling to find my way out.

Emptiness. Why do people have to feel this? There are days where I could just feel nothing, like I could just forget about all the things happening around me and don't give a shit about anything. Just me and my voice inside my head. And honestly, this scares the shit out of me. God, I don't even know why I'm writing this....maybe because writing helps put all my thoughts in perspective.

Please don't get worried. I think this is just a phase. I think this is the time where you question things, where you get very critical of yourself, where you just trying to find out who you are in this goddamn world. I hope by writing this, I can help someone (whoever read this meaningless blog) by letting them know that you're not the only one who feels this way.

You know what can cure this? Love. Just love. I often tell myself to be more open. To open my heart more to other people. It's obviously easier said than done. It's scary to think about it. You have to let your guards down, you have to give someone a chance to love you for who you are, and you have to be willing to get hurt. Disney movies sure made it looks easy to find your happily ever after, too bad real life doesn't work that way.

Final note, just let yourself be loved. Be grateful. Surround yourself with people you love and who love you back. And remember whatever happens, happens.



 I think you'll be fine.