People's mood is surely a bizarre thing. I can't never grasp how easy it is for a person to change mood from utter joy to feeling empty in an instant. No matter how loved you are by your family and friends, there will be times where we just feel like we want to disappear. Especially when you're still all confused and trying to find your place in this world, like me.

There will be moments where you just feel so alive but by the time you wake up the next morning, you feel nothing. I often ask myself how this is possible. Am I the only one who feels this way? Is it some kind of teeange-life-crisis? Do people in their 50s feel this way too? Or do they all feel content and have found a place for themselves in this world? I don't know.

I also learned in my 18 years of living in this world is that depression never really go away. They will come and go as they please. Everyone has their own way of dealing with depression. Some people are good at handling (or hiding) them , while others find it more difficult.

I pray to God to give me a long life, so that I can learn more about myself. I feel like there are so many layers and dynamics to one person, that makes it a lifetime for a person to truly know themselves. I pray that once I got old, I have found myself, as my true authentic self.